Lizzy Maguire

Almost everyone born in the early 90's knows this show. Y'know, its the Disney Channel Original with Hilary Duff as a quirky pre-teen girl. And she has this little manifestation of herself that lives in her head and portrays her true thoughts and feelings. Sometimes, i feel like i have a Sarah-version of that and there are so many thoughts and actions i wish i would act on but my own inhibitions and formalities make me stop and say something polite or do the most public-approved thing. And i wish i wouldn't. I wish i could just SAY what i really think when people ask me a question. i wish i could be the confident, funny person that deep down is still inside me. Or when i feel like curling up and just crying, breaking down, just DO it. But i can't. Because, somewhere, hardwired into my brain, is the notion that i have to be the strongest, the smartest, and the wisest that i can be. So i dont act impulsively. I dont do anything that anyone would see as a fault, or a crack in my armor of steel.